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Songs of the Soul

Songs of the Soul

By BR Chitwood

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[This post is dedicated to Leah Chrestien:

https://theecstaticstoryteller.wordpress.com%5D

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So many ‘mystic’ memories coalesce here in my soul, some too nightmarish and obscene on which to dwell, mentioned here only as side notes to a hitchhiking heart that would chase pellucid romantic illusions for a lifetime… Love, family, picket fence, without the negative side-scripts.

This incredible Romantic crusade brought me joy, love, and ultimate soul tremors until the inevitable ‘small things’ became too large, too cumbersome, and the sad ending would come. There, in that desolate mood of self-pity I would languish, absorb too much alcohol, settle for a lady of the evening, and awake in the mornings with hangovers and self-loathing…

This became the routine of my life. Having a college degree and good job, I worked in some sort of sloven capacity during the day, did some TV commercials and acting on the side, and it was seldom I was late for cocktail hour – party time, lady-chasing time, cocktail time.

I married, had kids, divorced in ten years. Must have liked ‘marrying’ because I did it again and again…until I found the ‘perfect lady’ for my imperfect self, NOT in a bar, but at the work-place. She is a lady of outstanding intellect and understanding, a patient person in our nuclear family.

Finally, I turned to my ‘first real love’, writing, I write novels inspired by true crimes, mysteries, thrillers, romance novels, a couple of memoirs, Science-Fic, et al. I’ve written twenty books, 400 blog posts, flash fiction, poetry, and short stories.

We live in Arizona with the Cacti family, the rattlesnake family, other homo sapiens.

I have mellowed with age, no more lady-chasing, bar-hopping, and booze. In fact, I’m a rather dull guy, care for my country, for all of the patriots who gave us freedom and liberty.

One last admission: there are at times the demons in the night, and youthful thoughts that give me hunger for that unruly past.

BR Chitwood – November 11, 2020

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10 comments on “Songs of the Soul

  1. Thanks for your service, Billy Ray. It is the kind of day to say that and I’m glad to be your friend. I still think giving up bourbon is not a healthy habit.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. B R Chitwood says:

      SO, I’m not giving it up! Hick!!

      Liked by 1 person

      1. B R Chitwood says:

        Easy for you to say! 🙂

        Liked by 1 person

    2. B R Chitwood says:

      I’m glad as well to be your friend, good John…

      Liked by 1 person

  2. B R Chitwood says:

    Never drunk Schwellll…stiken ta Mucker’s Mork!!

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Glad to know you, Billy Ray. You’re good people.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. B R Chitwood says:

      You’re good people, my friend, and I’m happy for our connection. 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

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