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©The Truth of Kay

AKA Kate’

by BR Chitwood

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In a post a few days ago I wrote a post entitiled, ‘A Pimple on Her Cheek’. While the short story was all that I wished it to be, a lingering nostalgia occupied my mind…there was indeed more to that story from a past that will stay active in my oft wandering mind until the end of my time.

There was indeed a beautiful raven-haired lady named, ‘Kate’, her real name was ‘Kay’, an actual name, an actual person, with whom I shared in a past time some happy, sad, confused and affecting weeks and months, drinking the nectar of love which I had never ever really known…

I had just left a marriage and three children after ten swirling years of Appalachian Mind Control, that is to say, a mind unable at the time to catalog and make sense of the world around me, a mind too young to make reasoned choices and decisions, a mind too eager to go to the next moronic level.

With the divorce, I began my odd California wandering. Bakersfield was a favorite spot so I decided to settle there for a while in morose mind-handling, feeling sorry for myself, sipping my cocktails, in and out of sorrow with my thoughts about my beautiful kids, when…

Kay Bruce came into my life, and she was a wonderful elixir to my grieving soul, that prior Appalachian Mind Control thing. Not only was she a needed and wonderful tonic, she was also beautiful, so delightfully English, a smart lady with a refined accent, long dark hair, and a sympathetic cushion for my cluttered head filled with bible belt guilt, remorse, and self-serving melancholy.

Kay and I were together for a time and she pampered me with her love and her good cooking, tried to assuage my mind and soul quakes. We went to nice restaurants, even met the great Hoagy Carmichael’s son, Randy, he a pianist of the first order, and we had a few pal-around weeks…even met his father, Hoagy, at an Airport dinner. Hoagy was between stops.

Beautiful Kay, for whom I did care so much, loved me, fed me her wonderfully prepared meals, and I fear I might have broken her heart. Too unsettled, at a crossroad in my life at which I could not emotionally deal or maturely understand. Hmm, perhaps that is still so.

Beautiful Kay, a singer with a lovely voice, while singing a wistful song of love and loss, all the while sadly and steadily looking at me as I sat solemn at the lounge bar of the nightclub. With tears about to come from a place of pain and poignancy on both our faces, I left the lounge and drove off into the night – where the tears did fall and I felt as small as a man could ever be.

That was the last time I saw the lady of beauty and love, but the haunt of her memory is there in the darkness as I try to sleep with all the crowded days and nights of yesterday.

Beautiful Kay, so many years have passed and yet your memory will never leave me.

I pray your life has found much happiness in it… Shortly after our time together I wrote a ballad for you. Were it possible, I would, together with Randy Carmichael, hop the first Time Machine to where you are, and I would sing it for you.

Here are the words…sing them softly, Kay. Bless you, dear Lady…

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©Eyes That Dance

So beautiful the night

So beautiful and bright

So wrapped up in delight

Am I…

With you here near to me

Then heaven cannot be

So very far away,

Just but a kiss away,

Oh, you,

With the eyes that dance.

Eyes that dance,

Eyes that dance,

Put me in a trance,

I don’t stand a chance –

I’m in love with the night

So beautiful,

And, you,

With the eyes that dance.

©by BR Chitwood

May 22. 2020

[Please forgive my huge Romantic, generational leap back!]

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12 comments on “The Truth of Kay – ‘aka Kate’ –

  1. Goodness. Billy Ray. So much regret written into these words. I guess you needed to get this off your chest.

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    1. Kay was a very special lady, kind, generous, beautiful, and English, who tried to mend my melancholy…over the kids (way back in the sixties, John, just coming out of my twenties and a marriage that should never have been). Had she come later, when ‘the oats were sown’ – suffice it, the ‘timing’ was bad’…I did write that song and felt the need to honor the beautiful lady in a post. (I’m just too open, John, at this stage in my life!)… Thanks for the comment – ( We ‘Romantics’ are built this way! 🙂

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      1. I get that for sure.

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      2. I knew you would! ♥♥♥

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  2. Beautifully written.

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    1. Ah, thanks, Tim. I so appreciate you. ♥♥♥

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  3. eden baylee says:

    This is melancholic and redemptive, Billy Ray. You’ve lived a life filled with wonderful women who loved you.

    For that, you are a very lucky man. xox
    eden

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    1. The gamut, Eden, regrets, loves, happiness, et al. A crazy, wonderful life… Thank you, sweet lady. xox

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  4. johndolanauthor says:

    Very emotive and touching, BR. JD

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    1. Thanks, JD… How must we react to mindless fools! Anger can come so quickly…

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      1. johndolanauthor says:

        “There are two things a person should never be angry at: what they can help, and what they cannot.” ~ Plato 🙂

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      2. You ‘pulled’ a ‘Plato’ on me! Who would dare argue with Plato? – Thanks, good friend… 🙂

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