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No Big-Boy Pants

By BR Chitwood


After all the years, there are no ‘Big-Boy Pants’ to wear.

After all the living, there are no ‘Big-Boy Pants’ to fit me…

All the little-boy thoughts, the wakeful dreams,

All sizes I tried, searching for that pair of ‘Big-Boy Pants’ –

On the neon-lined streets of lonely people, artists, and me,

I found meaningless toys of life, romance, the shadows of hope.


Now, here, in the fading light, I think of all I’ve missed, or, lost,

Crying in the deep darkness of my soul for another chance…

Perhaps another, more enlightened journey through the neon –

This time, finding that missing link to a well-spent quest…

Yet, a bold bard was right about the end’s dark veil and its tears –

Regrets, sad memories of child, man, events, with no real claim…


So, with sagging flesh, wrinkles, and, suddenly, no vision left,

The old man rises from his tear-stained pillow, to seek modest

Sustenance from the only constant in his remaining heart ticks…

Perhaps his words can convey some semblance to his waning and Simple existence,

Never coming close to finding a pair of Big-Boy Pants

That will fit the size of his supercilious and ghostly girth.

BR Chitwood – April 1, 2020

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12 comments on “No Big-Boy Pants

  1. Well, at least there are the words. Excellent tour of your mind, Billy Ray.

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    1. Thank you, good John – a ‘sleepless night’ tour! 🙂 ♥♥♥

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  2. Perchance to dream?

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    1. “Perchance to dream” – ‘All of Life’…

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  3. D.L. Finn, Author says:

    A time to smavoid thos Big-boy pants for a while…

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Night Demons! There still joys! Thanks, Jennie…just responding to my muse… 🙂

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      1. Jennie says:

        Haha! You are welcome, Billy Ray.

        Liked by 1 person

  4. Gwen M. Plano says:

    Age dangles the past before us at times, and sometimes, just sometimes, regrets sneak in. You’re leaving a remarkable legacy. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. And you, my friend, are precious and so generous…thank you and God Bless. ♥♥


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